undecided

Eastern or Maynilad?

yan ang tumatakbo ngaun sa utak ko.

It's really a tough decision to make.

One of the reasons why I can't let go Maynilad is because of the career growth that awaits me after I graduated from cadetship. But the training is still not in sight for us who are hoping. Crap! Clock is ticking!!!

Eastern.. hmmm.. eastern. I don't have any idea of what my future is in there. The only good thing about that company is that I will be able to use my course, appreciate being an ECE. That's it.

It's a matter of practicality and passion?

waaaahh.. WHATEVER!!!

complicated

waahh!! its been almost two weeks working in Maynilad. What can I say, it's really very TIRING and DIFFICULT!!! I have to endure the heat of the sun, the long walks everyday, nagging costumers, etc. As they say, it's really difficult when you are still starting. YEAH RIGHT! *sigh* And by the way,originally we were 44 engineers but now we are only 37. Some of us resign maybe because they think they can't do the census thing! Well I guess for us who are still in maynilad are HOPING that the cadetship program would open ASAP!!! Of course many of us don't have other career opportunities besides maynilad. But others had set a deadline on how long they're going to stay with the company. Some says after a month that they're going to resign, others says after 2 or 3 months. Well for me, I don't have any plan yet. As long as I feel that I still wanted to work with them, then I'll stay. If there's better offer from other companies, then why should I stay, right?

Things are going really complicated as time goes by..

late for lunch

I need a break now, didn't notice the time, it's already 1pm, need to eat my sinigang na baboy. Nope, I did not cook that and I don't know how. :p It's from the carinderia in our place.

Happy eating! :)

uncertain

I am actually feel so confused and at the same time scared about my career. I am about to start my career as field specialist in Maynilad on monday. I don't know if I made the right decision to take the job offer. I will do census in sampaloc and tondo. Imagine that, in tondo!!! Well, we all know the reputation of the place. I'm sure mangingitim ako nito especially its summer time. The job offered by the way is just a contractual position and the company didn't give us the exact period to finish the contract. The salary is about 10, 000 and it's taxable pa! Ano na lang matitira sa akin. I took the risk because the career in Maynilad looks promising once you've become a regular employee. Medyo nakakababa ng morale and self esteem kasi imagine Maynilad hired 40 licensed engineers and yet ang gagawin lang e magcensus! Parang kahit sino naman kayang gawin yun pero bakit kelangan engineers pa gumawa. My dad don't like the kind of work but since there's no other oppurtunities available for me, I have to be contended to what I have now. I'm just thinking that there's a better plan that awaits us.

After 3 or 4 months pwede maging 18, 000 ang salary ko once I qualified for cadetship program that will last for 6 months. After that pwede ka na maging regular, increase salary again and I would enjoy the benefits of the company. Not only that, the career growth in Maynilad is faster than any other company because you can get promoted as supervisor or manager if you had undergone cadetship training. *sigh* It's really a long process.. pero sabi nga nila, sandali lang yang 3 months or 6 months... Yun na nga lang ang iniisip ko e, for me to get motivated. Besides kasama ko naman si "sweetie" :p so enjoy pa rin.

Sa totoo lang, there's no assurance that I can be regularized in Maynilad because it really depends on my performance during the whole training. And hindi naman lahat ng 40 na they hired e mareregular... like 12 lang out of 40 ang kukunin. But I'm very positive na makukua ako dun sa 12 n yun! :p *that's the spirit!*

Anyway, there are things that keep bugging me. What if I did not succeed? Wala pa naman ako fallback. My application in eastern is still on-going, pero malabo ko na ata mapuntahan if ever they call me next week for interview kasi nga start na yun ng work ko. My application in smart and meralco weren't successful.. and sun did not contact me until now, twice na kaya ako nagbigay ng application ko sa kanila, hindi nila ako pinapansin! Hmmp, bahala nga sila, Its their lost! wahaaha :p Next thing is, what if jesi has a job offer in meralco or sun during our census? What if he take it? Sino na makakasama ko sa census? I don't have the right to control his decision, it's his call If he's going to take it but I wanted him to stay with me hanggang maapos ang contract. Hindi ko ata kaya magcensus mag isa or if ever I get another buddy, it woudn't be enjoyable compared when jesi is my buddy, that's for sure! Hay, andami dami issues in my mind.. kaya eto i feel uncertain.

I just pray that God will help and guide me everyday... and I hope that I made the right and wise decision. Goodluck to me on monday!!!

like a newbie

Its been almost one and a half year since my first post here. Well I kinda miss posting, so here I am again. Its like I'm back to scratch. I changed my layout as well as my domain name. I want a fresh start. I wanted to make this site as unknown as possible to those people who know me. Before, I decide to put up this blog to earn money... unfortunately, hindi ako naging successful. :p So I just decided to make this site as my online diary. I hardly can't talk to anyone, even to my special someone and to my best friends, about my disappointments, sadness and anger I feel, problems, and my other random ramblings in life. Baka maloka pa ko kaya its better to vent out all feelings here. :p Sa ngayon kasi medyo sad ako, dami ko "tampo" na naiipon ng naiipon lang. I can't tell it to the person involved because I don't want him to think that I'm being demanding and selfish.

Hmm.. its look like the coming posts are about my problems.. lets see..